I am back to being a stay at home mom, but I have no kids at home. I know this sounds extremely weird and lazy. Also, a lot of people would think I am just a lazy wife who likes to lay around all day. But, I have moved from a full time student, army reserves, full time ROTC to waking up and cleaning everyday.  

The reason my children are not at home because my magnificent husband came up with the idea of putting our children in daycare 2x a week to save my sanity and allow me the ability to get stuff done around the house. But, our daycare provider will not allow us the ability to do this till December 26, which is like 1 1/2 months away. 

So, I go to bed every day very late and wake up very late with nothing on my mind. All I do is clean, clean , clean, cook, clean, clean etc.  My life has dwindled down to cleaning and cooking. I spend my life cleaning, cooking and trying to listen to those I love in my life.

One more thing. My father told me he was "disappointed" in me because I left the IUPUI ROTC program to help with my family. 

Why do I feel so depressed? I have a husband who loves me and allows me the ability to stay home everyday.  I have a husband who tries to make sure that stress is MINIMIZED in my life.  Why I am sad? Why do I feel like there is so much more that I could do? 

Oh well. I have quit 2x with the ROTC program and was told I would never be given another chance. I better  try to get in the mindset of a stay at home mom or I will be hurting worse soon.  Just wish I knew what I used to think when I was staying at home with Juniper.